It could’ve been better, now that I think;
I could’ve been spared the wanton-think.
You could’ve averted the teasing wait,
You could’ve saved me from the endless date.
I could’ve stayed away from being a woman.
The mind-trip could’ve been much less consumin’.
Listen, I just think this could’ve been better.
I could’ve been weaker, I could’ve been less bold,
Sometimes I think that would’ve been much fairer to this world.
I should’ve been a bigger pansy and been a fatter liar,
I should’ve just picked up a pail of water and put out the fire.
I should’ve been less loyal, that would’ve been right.
Coz I don’t know if they even know my love and its might.
I wish I was selfish, I see so perfectly how it’d work,
Now I feel stupid for being a truthful jerk.
For the good girl I've always tried to be,
You should’ve atleast tried to make it easier for me.
O Big White Pervert in the Sky, hear me tonight,
I’m made out of you – why don’t you ever take my side?
You built me to be ruined and you surely will succeed,
Do unto me what you need to do to justify your creed.
I fight so hard so you’d someday feel ashamed
For using me as a toy in all your corrupted games.
So, stop watching me with a smile as I push the wall.
Sincerely, Your poor little baby doll.